Kondou Isami (近藤 勇)
CV: Inoue Kazuhiko (井上 和彦)
(HAPPY BELATED VALENTINES! I ridiculously missed the date but I wanted to share this as a Valentines gift to everyone. Kondou is one of my favorite characters from the Wasurenagusa series and his Kekkonroku track makes me bawl every time I listen to it. It was really surprising how much I liked him in the second series since I didn’t give him much thought in the first series (translated here by saki). Below will be somewhat of a TL;DR as I gush about why I love this guy).
Okay, I’ll assume you’re prepared for my TL;DR noroke on this character if you’re here. Unless, you’re just here for the translations in which case I guess you should just skip down to the actual translation part (´；ω；`). But if you are here to listen to me gush grossly about this guy then you’re in the right place!
One of the reasons why I love this CD series so much is that it develops the relationship between the heroine and the guy very well. It doesn’t happen just over the span of a few days but months and years. We have the added bonus of knowing that he had a previous CD that details the beginning of their relationship too.
OLDER MEN ヾ(:3ﾉｼヾ)ﾉｼ I just love how quietly supportive and gentle the love between Kondou and the heroine is. Compared to the other CDs of the series I find that Kondou’s R18 scenes are really quiet and understated, which isn’t a bad thing because it just focuses more attention on their interactions outside. He’s teasing, kind, and their entire relationship just feels calming and peaceful.
The main reason why I love Kondou though is because his life doesn’t revolve around the heroine. There is no doubt that she holds a very special place in his heart but he has his goals and dreams that are separate from that as well (aka: restoring peace to the country and his way of the samurai). I mean, I love all types of love stories (where the heroine is literally the guy’s life) but there’s such sweet agony when a character is torn between two very important things to them.
Also, he loves swords. SWORDS. Come on, it was like we were meant to be togethe– *bricked*. It’s seriously cute how passionate he can get about them though (although I completely agree that his first CD was a bit… uhh… with the sword part).
I don’t want to say anything more before I spoil the rest of the CD so let’s just move into the translation!
T/N: Kondou calls the heroine “ojou-san” which is a polite way to call a young lady. I’ve decided to translate it as “Miss” here, but just keep in mind that he’s very polite.
*** TRACK 1 ***
K: 1866. October. Two years have passed since the night of the Ikedaya Incident. The Shinsengumi have expanded greatly after being well-received by the shogunate. However, in September there was an incident known as the Sanjo Seisatsu; and now, throughout the country, the Shinsengumi have earned the disparaging name of “The Wolves of Mibu”.
K: Our work has been recognized by the shogunate and we have officially become the retainers of the shogunate. The Shinsengumi are sailing smoothly. The name of the commander, Kondou Isami, and others like Hijikata and the leaders have spread.
K: Everything is thanks to all the people who believed and followed in me, who was born to farmers. I’m incredibly proud; however, problematic and troubling things have appeared in no small numbers following this success. There is one problem that is especially bothering me day and night as of late… and that is…
[02:14] *pages flipping*
K: *sighs* What is this… all these untouched reports have become unbearable. Even if I tell myself that these things are going to be presented to the shogunate and so I need to do them… I still don’t feel like it.
K: But if I don’t take care of these then Hijikata will get angry at me, huh. I want to avoid that… *sighs* Hmm… why can’t I be in the mood to do this? Ah, I know! If I sleep then I might get the energy to do this! I’ll go to sleep for tonight.
K: Oh? Miss, you came at the perfect time! Come in.
*sliding door opens* *sliding door closes*
K: Did you finish your work for tonight? The water is starting to turn cold, so are your hands becoming rough? How are they? Let me see.
K: *amused* I can’t see them at all when you hold them out at that distance. Why don’t you come closer to my side? We’re lovers after all… See, we should be at least this close.
K: Haha, Miss, it’s always so comfortable to hold you. The way you fit just right in these arms makes me wonder sometimes if you were born for me to hold like this. I often think about your warmth and softness when I spend nights alone.
K: If there weren’t so many eyes on us, I would definitely sleep with you in my arms every night. Hm? Ah, right, I was going to look at your hands. Let’s see.
K: That’s a relief! It doesn’t look like they’ve cracked, but you can’t let your guard down. If you feel even a little pain, tell me immediately. I’ll ask Yamazaki-kun for some effective medicine.
K: I pamper you too much? Haha! What are you saying? It’s natural to be worried about one’s beloved.
K: Besides, in these quarters, I’m not very involved with you so that we aren’t caught. And so, I should spoil you when we’re alone together like this, right?
K: I can’t help but be affection with you, Miss. If you’ll permit me, I would embrace you throughout the day and spend my time slowly together. Hm, that’s a great idea if I do say so myself. How about it, Miss? What do you say to spending time locked in a hotel room together intimately with me where the eyes of my men won’t reach?
K: *amused* You sound just like Hijikata-kun. It might be just a dream since we’re currently in such a busy time, but.. it might be reachable to me in a bit more. In that case, I’ll seriously think about it… eh? Ah, those things on my writing desk. Those are… well… ahaha, they aren’t things for you to worry about, Miss.
K: Right now, I just want to be with you. Don’t worry, I’ll finish my work properly. Putting that aside, you are more important right now. It’s been painful lately not concerning myself with you. Let me stay like this a while longer.
K: *exhales* I feel cured. Being together with you like this makes me feel like I have more energy, slowly. Hm, but I still want to take a break. *teasing* How about it, Miss? Do you want to help me until I feel like I can do my work? It’s simple… all I want is…. a kiss from you.
K: With that, my feelings will switch over and I promise I’ll return back to my desk. I’m quite amazing when I’m serious, you know. I’ll show an efficient work ethic and in one night that amount I’ll quickly finish it up.
K: Ahaha, it’s enjoyable to hear your laugh. Now, face this way. Well? Will you kiss me?
K: Hm… Oh? Is it over with just this? Haha, what a cute kiss. It’s just like you, Miss. I feel a little bit unsatisfied but it can’t be helped. I have to protect the promise I made, huh. I should start my work.
K: Ah, Miss! Wait a moment, I forgot to say something. I don’t know when we’ll be able to spend time like this again, so I’ll say it right now. For a little while I’ll be even busier than I am now. Most likely, to the point where I won’t be in these quarters for days.
K: Right now, it is a difficult time with a lot of things happening for the Shinsengumi. I would appreciate it if you were patient with any feelings of loneliness that I might cause. When things calm down, as compensation, why don’t the two of us go out?
K: It’s impossible to stay at a hotel but… I should be able to create at least a day for us to go out. Oh right, before we promised to go to the market again and we haven’t done that yet, right? I’ve been interested in that all this time.
K: That’s why I’ll make another promise. Before long, the two of us will go out. I promise, okay? Haha, I’m looking forward to it right now. And somehow or another on that day, I am going to devote everything of myself to giving you so much attention that you’ll be overwhelmed. Prepare yourself.
K: Anyway, you should be able to sleep now that you’re warm, right? Good night.
*** TRACK 2 ***
K: However, I was worked to death for days. Even though I would have liked to see Miss’ face in those days, it was difficult to find the time to go out or even have a conversation. In the meanwhile, time passed. 1867.
[00:48] *sliding door opens*
K: Oh? It’s you, Miss! *sliding door closes* I’m happy to be able to meet you before even calling for you. It looks like the day will be great today.
K: That’s right, how many days has it been since we saw each other’s faces? Lately, I’ve just been bustling about here and there that it’s dizzying. Are there any changes with you, Miss?
K: Ah, you’ve arranged flowers? It was camellias today, huh. It must have been hard looking for flowers so soon after the winter. As always, thank you.
K: It would be nice if forget-me-nots bloomed all year round, since I would be satisfied with just those every day. Especially when that flower is a sentimental one between I and the Miss. I want to collect them again with you some day.
K: Oh dear, we haven’t had any days to spend leisurely though. Miss, would you lend me some of your time? Thank you. In truth, there was a meeting today but I asked for a favor and ended it early. In that time, I bought this!
K: *excited* Well? They’re bean rice cakes from Tokiwano. These bean rice cakes are so limited that if you don’t stand and watch for the freshly made ones, you would never get them! It’s sweetness spreads so faintly throughout your entire mouth that you’ll want think about wanting to always eat it from the bottom of your heart.
K: In addition, the size of these bean rice cakes are just right to bite into comfortably. Ah, just thinking about it makes me hungry. Now, let’s eat! They’re still warm and so they should be sof–… huh?
K: Eh? You don’t look very happy. I thought for sure you would have a weakness for swee–… Ah, no, you’re mistaken! It wasn’t that I put a priority on running out and buying sweets even though I hadn’t seen your face for quite some time, please don’t misunderstand!
K: From the start I bought these for you, Miss. Ah, I admit I did think to have one for myself but that was secondary! My objective was to please you but… *sighs* it looks like I failed. Everything that I say after buying these bean rice cakes won’t sound like anything but excuses. But it’s true, Miss. I bought these for you.
K: Especially when we weren’t able to see each other on the night of our anniversary. *amused* That look on your face shows that you don’t seem to have any idea of what I’m talking about, huh. Haha, even if you have forgotten I remember completely.
K: Yesterday marks the two year passage of the night we first joined together. You certainly won’t say that you’ve forgotten the events of that night, right? Going from your expression, it looks like you remember. Ahaha, I’m relieved.
K: Last year, I also wanted to spend the night together for our first anniversary but… it was just like this year. I can’t seem to find any time. I’ve given up regretfully. And so that’s why I thought that I should at least buy some sweets as an apology, you see. Well? Did I clear up the misunderstanding?
K: *chuckles* I’m glad. I wasn’t sure what to do when I saw that expression on your face, Miss. I’m always thinking about you. Well then, let’s eat these together! If we don’t hurry then we’ll waste these freshly pounded rice cakes.
K: Here, I’ll feed you. Open your mouth please… Haha, is it delicious? Ah, that’s a relief! As I thought, it’s best when you’re smiling like that. Miss, could you also give me a bite?
K: *takes a bite* Mm…! It’s delicious! This is a sweet I’d love to eat everyday. Mm, it’s good that I bought a lot. Miss, you should eat another one. Here, open your mouth. Haha, it looks like you’re happy.
K: By the way… I have something I want to talk about. Will you listen to me? *serious* In truth… the reason for ending this morning’s meeting to buy sweets… was found out by Hijikata-kun. I ran away as fast as I could but… I’m sure Hijikata-kun will catch up at any minute.
K: A long lecture is waiting for me if I get caught! Ah! Just imagining it makes me shudder! And so, I want to ask a favor from you, Miss. Where do you think I should run? You would know of a good hiding place after cleaning here and there around the quarters, right?
K: It goes without saying that you’ll tell me, won’t you? I’m begging you. I’m sure that Hijikata-kun’s anger will calm after some time passes… so I just need to hide somewhere for a little while.
K: A closet? Ahaha, I see! I’m sure that even Toshi wouldn’t think of someone my size hiding in a place like this. *excited* It’s a great idea!
K: *whispers* Uh oh, speak of the devil… Over here, Miss! I’m not sure what he will say if you stay here, so hide with me! Now, hurry!
*both of you run off and squeeze into a closet*
K: Okay, it’s a little tight but just endure it for a little while. Be quiet… *exhales* It doesn’t look like he’s coming. Is he looking somewhere else?
K: Well, it’s true that there would be no possibility of me being in my own room obediently. He might have decided from the start that I wouldn’t be here and wouldn’t come here. However, on the other side, he might have realized the possibility from my angle that I would come to my room. Hm… this is a serious battle between Toshi and I.
K: However, one way or another, hiding in a closet on this occasion is my win. After Toshi sees that my room is completely empty, we’ll be able to slip out of here. Miss, please endure this for a while longer.
K: But… it feels like it’s been a while since we were pressed up close to one another like this. Somehow it feels a little embarrassing, huh.
K: Hey, it’s a bit troubling if you react like that. It’ll make me want to make a pass at you even though we’re in the middle of playing hide and go seek.
K: *quietly* Oh my, it feels like I touched something soft… *teasing* I wonder what it is? I can’t see very well in this dark. Oh? It feels like my hand just slipped into someplace, hehe. I’m not sure where it is.
K: It’s interesting to feel the thing in my hand change shapes as I touch it, but I wonder what exactly it is. *clothes rustling* Shh… don’t struggle. What will you do if Hijikata-kun notices us? It’d be best for you to enjoy this without resisting. Come on… *kisses*
K: Yes, that’s right… accept me and use your tongue. *deeper kisses* *faint noise of a sliding door being opened* … It looks like he came. *footsteps* When I think about how we’re just separated by one thin wall… I get a thrill.
K: *whispers* So that we won’t be noticed… keep your voice silent. *resumes kissing* Miss, your body is hot. It looks like you’re working hard to endure this. How cute… *kisses*
K: Your voice… is leaking out, huh. I guess I’ll have to block it then. *passionate kiss* Your breath is catching… does it hurt? But just a little more… *kisses*
K: I’m in trouble now… at this rate.. ngh… I’m going to desire you more. Mm… *kisses* *footsteps fade and then a sliding door closes* Oh? It looks like he left… haha, what a shame. It was a bit amusing to imagine being caught right now. Ah well, I’ll be thankful for managing to avoid being lectured.
[13:06] *slides open closet door*
K: *exhales* Well, that was interesting! It was exciting to be with you in such a tight place, huh. It almost feels like it’ll become a vice. How about it? Next time shall we go until the en–… Ah, it looks you’re glaring at me with your eyes. Could it be that you’re angry? Ahaha, that expression on you is also cute.
K: It looks like I went too far with my teasing and joking around, I’m sorry. What can I do to apologize and cheer you up? It doesn’t look like you’ll forgive me if I were to give you all the remaining bean rice cakes, huh.
K: Hmm… ah, I know! How about I buy you something when we go out next time? Not sweets, but a proper gift. I’ll choose something wholeheartedly for you, Miss. How about it?
K: Haha, don’t say that! I’m a clumsy man who can’t show his feelings other than in this way. Mhm, this will also be a promise. There, there… *pets your head* Is your temper cured, Miss?
K: If we parted like this I would feel uneasy on whether or not you hated me. Come on, show me your smile.
K: Mm, that’s a nice smile! You’re so cute *light kiss*. Now then, we should return back to our work. Ah, see you later! I’m also looking forward to our promise.
*** TRACK 3 ***
K: 1867, June. The Shinsengumi were openly recognized as retainers for the shogunate. We moved our headquarters to Nishi Hongan-ji in Fudodo village. In this capital, suspicious activity from people who held grudges were reported. But, by a small degree, various troubles started to pile up.
K: In order to resolve these, I took command without any days of rest; especially when a critical decision appeared and was made.
K: Miss, are you there? I’m entering. *opens sliding door* Ah, you’re there. Good morning. It looks like the morning’s work has been finished, huh. *enters and closes sliding door*
K: There’s something I want to ask of you. You don’t have to do any more work today, so please give me your undivided attention… Ahem, I’m ordering you as the commander to spend time together with me and enjoy yourself to the fullest, okay?
[01:32] *you hug him*
K: Woah, haha! Were you surprised? I see; somehow I was able to make some time. The opportunity has finally come around. Of course, you’ll go out with me right?
K: Unfortunately, it’s not a market day but in exchange there’s a temple festival nearby. Why don’t we go there?
K: In that case, let’s make some preparations to head out. I’ve been waiting forever for this day; it wasn’t just a little while.
[02:18] *you two are walking through the festival*
K: It’s been a long a time since I’ve been to a temple festival. In Edo, I walked around a lot but here I had to make some arrangements. Hm? Well… I did have to meet some people, but I couldn’t bring myself to feel like it at all so I postponed those plans.
K: Relax, I didn’t do anything that would anger Hijikata-kun. Yep, although something did happen… it isn’t anything for you to worry about, Miss; it’s just that a decision was made that was a little bit depressing. But… it’s not attractive to complain, huh.
K: More importantly, I want to feel soothed by you without any questions. It’s more than enough to be together with you like this. Furthermore, I’m not always able to go out with you so let’s stop before it gets boring. Let’s have fun and throw away talks of treachery.
K: But this is an amazing crowd, huh. *lowers voice* With this many people, don’t you think that my people won’t be able to see us? Hehe… right? We can act a little more like lovers here. Come on, shall we hold hands? It looks like it’ll be hard to reunite if we get lost, so make sure not to let go of my hand.
K: Now then, let’s look around at some shops. I’ve heard that these stands have lot of things in season. I’m sure they’re filled with delicious things.
K: The shop that sells roasted chestnuts is probably around–… Hm? *excited* Aren’t there katanas over there?! Huh? This is my first time seeing that man! There’s a possibility that a katana that I haven’t seen yet is sleeping in there! In any case, I’ve become an acquaintance to most of the katanas there and so the thought of an unfamiliar katana is–… ah…
K: No, let’s not. It’s nothing, Miss. Haha, thank you, but the feeling is enough. I’ll take you up on that offer but I’ll be looking at the katanas last, because I’ll lose myself and space out when looking at the blades. That would be such a waste when I’m finally out here with you, Miss. I’ve decided to only think about you today.
K: *excited* Moreover, don’t you smell something delicious? This is the smell of fried dango! Let’s go that way! Look, they’re selling great fried dango!! I’m suddenly hungry. Miss, do you want to eat one? Mister, can we get two of those?
K: Here you go, this one is for you, Miss. It’s hot so be careful when you eat it. *bites down on his* Mm, delicious! I like it when there’s strong seasoning. It’s an unusual taste different from Kyoto, right?
K: Hm? Ah yes, that’s right, those sweet rice balls beside this shop look delicious as well but… Miss, did you want to eat some? In that case, I’ll go and buy some! Me? Hmm… it’s true that I’m interested in it but when I eat sweet things I inadvertently become entranced, to the point where I don’t pay attention to anything else. And so I was thinking that I wouldn’t touch them for today.
K: Besides, it would be a problem if you started sulking, right? Haha, I’m joking! At any rate, if I do want to eat something sweet then I can just ask for a bite from what you’re having. Normally, I wouldn’t be able to open my mouth and have you feed me in front of others, right? Now then, what kind of shop should we look at next? If there’s something you want to see, tell me. Me? Well… let’s walk some more down these food stalls and look at popular ones.
K: There aren’t many people after walking this far, huh. We’ve left behind the crowds around the stalls. Do you want to return? Ah, you’re curious about what’s past here? I’m certain there’s a shrine here, look, you can see the torii, right?
K: Yes, that’s true, it’d be wearing to return immediately to the bustle. At the least, let’s visit the shrine. *footsteps* Mm, what a nice wind. Autumn feels nice; there are delicious foods, the coolness is just right, and it’s easy to pass the time. It’s a feast for your eyes when you raise your head and look around at the vivid colors of the autumn leaves. It’s a great season.
K: But I’m sure that, from now on, my heart will hurt every time autumn comes around. Every year… every year… always…
K: It’s something that you don’t need to know, Miss. I want you to just see the beautiful things, if that is possible. It’s also a form of happiness to go on not knowing any pain, right? This might be a selfish and conceited request though.
K: We’ve arrived! Well then, let’s make some prayers. *tosses money into the box* *rings bell* *claps hands*
K: Haha… you have such a serious expression. What did you wish for? Sound health? For all of the Shinsengumi? Ahaha! That makes me happy, thank you. I’m sure a wish from a cute lady such as yourself will be delivered.
K: Me? That’s right… I… didn’t wish for anything. I didn’t know what to wish for since there were so many things that I wanted to be granted. I’m too greedy, I suppose.
K: The organization of the Shinsengumi… the men who compose that… the attitudes of the people… and the subjugation of this country… moreover, of course you, Miss. I treasure them all and I can’t put precedence over any one of them.
K: I want to carry all of my precious things and, while protecting them, continue to the future one step at a time; that would be nice, eh? That step… has become frightfully heavy these days. There are also things that go badly… but even still, for the people who follow what I do to the end, I have no choice but to continue walking.
K: I believe that there will be happiness for them further down this road. I must hold this commitment of walking as the vanguard to the end.
K: Hah, I’m sorry. I talked about boring things, huh. You don’t have to worry about it… It’s about time we returned back to the stalls. Let’s go.
K: Oh, how unusual! That stall over there sells obis. Why don’t we go look at it for a bit? The ready-made ones are made quite well. There are also a lot of patterns and designs… it looks like we can found a good buy.
K: Oh, I know, Miss! I made a promise previously to give you a present, right? How about an obi? If you’ll let me, I want choose one that suits you. Haha, thank you. Alright, I’ll choose one with vigor!
K: This one… hmm… it’s pretty but it doesn’t go with Miss’ kimono. This one over here… might be a bit too gaudy, it would be better to have something that is like you. Oh! This one…! Ah, this one is perfect! Miss, come over here. How about this one? It’s cute and suits you well! It’s as if this obi was made for you from the start.
K: That’s right… I think that this obi, with its faint falling flower petals, suits you. If you choose a kimono that has a subdued color and then have this conspicuous obi, it would give a fashionable impression. Haha, right? You’re interested?
K: In that case, let’s buy it! Mister, wrap this one up.
K: We bought something good, huh. I guarantee that it’ll suit you, Miss! I want to hurry up and see you with this obi on now. Moreover, I’m also looking forward to unwrapping that obi with my hands. Haha, sorry sorry! It looks like I have the tendency to say too much. It slipped out because your reaction is so cute.
K: Oops, it looks like I should be more careful from now on before I let something slip from my mouth. Hahaha! *you two start walking* Now then, let’s go look at other shops. There are a lot of other things that will look good on you, and we’ll buy them if we find something great.
K: I would like to buy everything from hairpins to getas, but… it looks like only kimonos are sold at temple festivals. At any rate, the number of people has grown! Miss, so that you aren’t taken away by this crowd of people hold my ha-… Eh? Miss?!
*** TRACK 4 ***
*birds chirping* *frantic footsteps*
K: Miss! *out of breath* So this is where you where…! I’m so relieved. I was worried! I’m sorry for leaving you alone. Did anything happen? I thought you might have returned back to the headquarters, but I realized your disposition would mean that you wouldn’t return until you found me. It looks like I was correct, as I thought.
K: Miss, you must have searched for me thoroughly as well, huh. Your hair is loosened and is stuck onto your forehead. Moreover, your kimono is in a bit of disorder as well. I’m sorry again for making you feel helpless. Please, let me fix your kimono.
K: Ah! If we go under the bridge there then we won’t be seen by other people. Come.
[01:12] *running stream*
K: Stay still… By the way, did you know, Miss, that when a man offers to fix your kimono they actually have an ulterior motive? Haha… this is the first time you’ve heard that? Then it would be best if you remembered it… nodding your head carelessly and being taken to a place where no one else can see you will get you teased. *kisses*
K: I feel like it has been a long time since I kissed you like this. I’m not a strong enough person to hold back for so long. I’ve wanted your lips like this… unbearably for so long. *kisses* It’s no good… I can’t get enough… more… *deeper kisses*
K: That look on you is irresistible; it makes me want to do more. You’re always breaking my self-control so easily… such a naughty girl.
K: You’re making such cute sounds… It’s fine; those kinds of sounds will be erased by the sound of the river… no one will find us. That’s why… *soft whisper in left ear* don’t worry… and relax your body. *kisses* I can’t stop…
K: I love you, Miss. I want to see more of your dazed face. *light kisses* Hehe… I’ll fix your kimono properly later… and so… be quiet and listen to my words. Come on… show me this place… No, you can’t do that; show me. It’s because your reaction is too cute that I can’t let it go…
K: *whispers* That’s right… that’s good. Heh… *wet sounds* you’re already like this, huh. Did you want me to do this to you? What a lovely girl. I’m going to… touch here. *more wet sounds*
K: You can close your eyes if you’re embarrassed. Simply just feel me. *kisses* Ahaha… your legs are trembling. Hold onto me tightly. *more kisses* I love you, Miss. Haha… please don’t make such an ardent noise… it makes me want to drive you senseless.
K: Just how far are you going to entrance me? Surely… I will want to do this again immediately afterwards… *kisses* Hehe… your breaths are hitching… Good gracious, you’re absolutely adorable. *more kisses*
K: It looks like you’re going to reach your limit soon… *sucking kisses* That’s fine… *resumes*
[06:48] *flowing river*
K: *hoarse voice* You were lovely, Miss, haha. Thanks to you, I feel like the thirst in my heart has been filled. But next time… let’s take our time in a room rather than outside. I now understand the pain of being unable to see all of your bare skin.
K: Next time… I’ll also be doing more things. *low chuckle* It’s something to look forward to from now. I’m worried about being able to endure this until the next opportunity. If I can’t endure it no matter what then… I’ll secretly sneak into your room at night, haha. Alright, Miss?
K: Hahaha, being silent means you’re not opposed to it, right? *chuckles* I’m glad, but don’t worry because I’ll properly let you know ahead of time before I sneak into your room.
K: You know, I love it when you have a defenseless look on your face but I love it more when you have a restless expression from waiting for me. Haha, now… this time I’ll fix your kimono properly. We need to look unsuspicious when we return to the headquarters.
*** TRACK 5 ***
*howling wind* *footsteps*
K: Who is that over there? Come out. *amused* As I thought it’s you, Miss. Were you trying to surprise me? Too bad, I knew immediately that it was you.
K: Hm? No, I’m not doing anything in particular… I’m just… looking at the stars and moon after thinking that they were pretty in the wintry night.
K: The color of my face? Ah, I see… it’s nothing much… What’s wrong all of a sudden? Miss, your hand is considerably warm… no, I’m just cold.
K: How long have I been here? Who knows… since the moon started rising, maybe… that’s how long I feel like I’ve been here.
K: You don’t need to worry… I feel like staying like this. Miss, you should return back to your rooms and sleep. You can leave me alone.
K: *wry grin* I’ve lost… Do I really look that pale? Ahaha, certainly not! It’s fine and it’s not like I could leave your side, right? Don’t worry.
K: I know, and I’ll listen to you. It’s true that I’ll probably catch a cold like this. I’m sorry, but could you bring some hot water? Mm, I’ll wait until you heat it up.
[02:50] *you enter his room and close the sliding door* *placing cups down*
K: Thank you. *drinks* Mm, it warms my body. *drinks more* Today has… taken its toll on me. *places cup down* That’s right… it’s about Souji.
K: Even though he’s that weak… he still clung on wanting to be here… I sent Souji away from the headquarters, telling him that it was for medical treatment. From the start it was the result of thinking about the person in question’s sake. If he continued to remain in the Shinsengumi… that kid’s heart would… have been worn away.
K: At any rate… even though he couldn’t wield a katana anymore… that kid, who argued vehemently to be of any kind of help… I could not bear seeing anymore. Souji is… a really strong kid.
K: Although a lot of things happened this year… Souji always accompanied me. He’s been with me the longest… as one would expect, being separated hurts. I felt like only that kid would be with me until the end. It would be nice if we could meet again…
K: *sighs loudly* It became a gloomy conversation, huh. That’s right… I’m sure we’ll be able to see each other again. In any case, Souji has always been tenacious from long ago. There’s no mistake that he’ll return as if nothing happened after a short while.
K: Hm? I see, I haven’t talked about this. Yes, Souji has been with me for the longest. I met Souji at the Shieikan in Edo, a kenjutsu dojo… That boy was still nothing more than a kid and came with the goal of studying by observation. But, right after he entered the dojo, he thought of himself as being very strong and so he declared, without delay, that he was the best. Haha, what nerve, right?
K: At that time, there were people in the dojo stronger than me; and so they treated it as the nonsense of a child. They said something unreasonable like, if he was earnest and enthusiastic about this then he would continue to practice-swing his sword until the next morning. Souji agreed to that.
K: Because of that, I watched over him as he practiced swinging his word throughout the night. It was amazing. That kid accomplished an amazing feat… Even while he was staggering on his feet, he didn’t make one complaint. I ended up admiring his willpower.
K: The next day, Souji officially became a pupil of the Shieikan. He distinguished himself conspicuously. He might have been bullied for being the youngest, but… he got even without fail. He was born headstrong.
K: By the way, the next person who has been with me the longest is Hijikata-kun. My meeting with him was also connected to the Shieikan.
K: I was coaching at another dojo and met Hijikata-kun who was studying there. He became a pupil at the Shieikan when he saw my school, the Tennen Rishin-ryuu. I don’t know how many drinks I’ve had with Toshizo now. I don’t drink a lot of alcohol even though Toshi tries to get me into it, but I’m now better at handling my alcohol than Toshi *amused*.
K: By the way, Hijikata-kun’s excessive arrogance and long lectures haven’t changed from when I first met him. He’s often called the “Demon Vice-captain”; he’s quite a scary man when I think about that. I often think that he’s the only person I don’t want to anger, haha.
K: There were other guests at the Shieikan like Nagakura-kun, Harada-kun, Heisuke, and Saitou-kun. *picks up cup and drinks from it*
K: When I think back to those days, they haven’t changed much even now. Nagakura-kun feels a lot like an older brother… he’s very helpful and is someone you can rely on. He’s older and easily affectionate; and popular among men and women of all ages.
K: *lowers voice* This is just between us but even though Nagakura-kun acts like that, he’s actually lonely. He always wants to be with people, and though he makes women cry it is cute to think of him like that, no?
K: And the one who wants to be a man like Nagakura-kun is… Heisuke. It’s obvious from a glance that he admires Nagakura-kun. I remember that, in order to imitate him, Heisuke also played around with women, but… it made me smile to see him have to stand on tiptoe to be taller.
K: Even though the age I met Heisuke was when he stilled looked like a young boy, in the blink of an eye he was able to make that kind of decision by himself. People grow up so fast, huh.
K: Ah, that’s right, speaking of Heisuke, that kid also has a strange side of him that is unafraid of anything. That kid is able to connect with everyone without discrimination. He was even able to talk lightheartedly with Harada-kun, who in those days kept everyone at a distance.
K: Harada-kun is quite eccentric and doesn’t connect with others. He keeps a distance between everyone but, thanks to Heisuke continuous chatting and talking, the distance between him and everyone has been closing. Before very long Nagakura-kun, Harada-kun, and Heisuke started teasing each other and having fun together. I’m glad the three of them were such good friends..
K: Even Harada-kun has a softer expression when he’s with Heisuke…
K: Come to think of it those three always try to meddle with Saitou-kun, because he’s very serious. No matter what kind of silly question you ask of him, he always answers after serious thought. That was interesting… although the person himself was extremely serious.
K: I also think Saitou is an oddball. When he’s drunk he tends to randomly smile a lot which I think is strange but interesting. You see, normally he’s so straight-laced. Up to now I’ve never met a man who had such two different sides.
K: At the same time, it’s very interesting how he dislikes women. Once in a while, when he enters a restaurant and a waitress comes to take our orders he will get a crease on his forehead.
K: It’s just a small change but normally Saitou is always so expressionless, and it makes me laugh so hard that it hurts.
K: Those times… were such fun… Together with them, when we were still known as “The Wolves of Mibu”, we made a new start for the Shinsengumi. It makes me feel happy to have raised both the people and Shinsengumi together, and I thought that I could bear as much responsibility as is needed in order to protect the public order.
K: But when did it happen… I know that the members of the group that I hand-picked aren’t very far but… somehow, the lives of the men who I think of as family have disappeared in front of my eyes, to say nothing of each person’s heart.
K: I hadn’t thought properly about how one day… your precious things will break. I understand now… I realized too late that things can be broken outside of battle as well.
K: He had such spirit… only to fall to illness… From the start I only had a silent opinion, but before long cracks started to show. Throughout time, things like this happen all the time, huh… I try to come to terms with it every time and my mind tries to comprehend that it can’t be helped.
K: But still I wonder if there is anything that I can do… each and every person’s path separates infinitely… and their destination isn’t something that I can decide with just my will, huh.
K: Each and every time someone goes on a journey alone and moves slowly away from my hand… his smile appears… and won’t leave my mind. *soft voice* In the end… I can’t stop my regrets.
K: As the commander, I mustn’t allow myself to become lost. At the very least, I must serve everyone in this new territory without having my feelings perceived or showing my emotions.
K: But… I can’t continue to stand upright… while keeping my feelings suppressed and holding myself together strongly. *exhales* I’m sorry, Miss. Once again, our conversation returned to this… I’m not a very good conversationalist on a day like this, huh.
K: I’m not able to give you any entertainment… Let’s sleep for today. I’m fine and I’ll be back to normal by tomorrow. Thank you for the hot water and, if possible, I would like you to forget about tonight. I’m sorry for making you worry.
K: Aa, good night. *wind whistles*
*** TRACK 6 ***
K: The rest of society started to gradually overthrow the shogunate. A new age was swelling on the horizon… I started feeling that from a long time ago. But I… am already walking on this path. I cannot permit myself to turn back.
K: As a samurai, because of the shogunate, one has to use their own strength. The people cannot be drawn into battle… this country needs to be returned to peace once again. I vowed this to myself and left for Kyoto.
K: For the sake of peace I chose the path of gripping Kotetsu and cutting down enemies in my way. If the people who were trying to overthrow the shogunate were eliminated then the people could finally live in safety… that’s what I believed. But that is the same thing those who were trying to overthrow the shogunate believed in.
K: They are not intentionally trying to cause strife… they believe that this country will become better if they are successful in overthrowing the shogunate. The reverberation from this sacrifice of peace spreads. Even if we win… or if the other side wins… eventually peace will fall.
K: But I… want to grasp peace with my own hands. For the purpose of gaining favor with the shogunate and together with my comrades… I wanted to gain victory. 1868. January 3rd. A battle at Toba-Fushimi broke out; the Shinsengumi, joined with those from the shogunate, and the new government collided.
K: In that same year, on the sixth day of January, at the end of the vicious battle the shogunate was defeated. And the next day, at the mediation, a subjugation of the shogun was decreed. All the people who obeyed the shogunate… were branded as traitors. We… were defeated…
[03:15] *raining* *sliding door opens*
K: It’s me, Miss. I’m sorry… it’s dark and I’m late. *embraces you* I’m very sorry… you must have been worried, huh.
K: Others might hear us while we talk at the entrance, shall we go inside? *shuts the sliding door* *walks into the room and seats himself*
K: Miss, how have you been faring? Have you been eating properly? Just as ordered, you’re hiding and living as a relative of one of the Shinsengumi, right?
K: *quietly* Ah, I see… in that case you’ll surely be fine. A young lady like you won’t be taken by the new government.
K: Me? That’s right… right now, you could say that I’m being made to stand in the most painful adversity.
K: You already know… what’s become of us, right?… Our dreams have… fallen apart… The shogunate lost… My men have also become scattered from the battle.
K: As for me… rather than being wanted by the new government I’m wanted by the police.
K: If I am caught.. they will not overlook me. But it’ll be fine. For a little while I’ll change my name and hide myself.
K: No, Miss, you won’t be able to help me here. You’re finally living well here. I don’t know when I’ll be discovered… and being by my side will destroy this life you’ve made… I can’t do that.
K: *strongly* No! It’s too dangerous… I cannot put you in dangerous situations. Can you understand? Miss, you’re currently living peacefully, right? I… continued down this path wishing to give everyone peace. And so… why do you think I could intrude on your peaceful life?
K: If I did that… I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself for my entire life. Please don’t cry. I have also thought about taking you with me… but I can’t. A day will surely come where it will be a mistake and I will regret it.
K: Miss, live here in happiness. I’m pleading you… *shaky* Don’t cry… *kisses* I’m sorry for my selfishness. What can I do to have you forgive me?… What can I do to have you accept this?
K: You won’t be able to accept this? *softly* That’s right… that’s natural… In that case, at the very least let us have one night of memories.
K: I want you to feel me completely… *kisses* *rain grows louder*
*** TRACK 7 ***
K: Come closer to the light… I want to see everything of you. I want to engrave this… firmly… in my mind.
K: This obi… isn’t the one that was bought at the temple festival, huh… what a shame. In any case, I hoped that this was a night when you were wearing that obi… *wry tone* I have no luck, huh… to be unable to see you in that obi which suited you the best; how cruel.
K: You’re beautiful… Miss. It’s something that I noticed after we were parted for a while. When did you become so beautiful? Nn… *soft kisses*
K: I’ve always thought of you as a cute young girl… but three years has passed since the Ikedaya incident, huh. It’s been more than enough time to grow into adulthood… I think that I won’t be able to watch over you from here on.. as you become even more beautiful. My heart hurts.
K: Kotetsu is also reluctant to part from you, Miss. *unsheathes his sword* Here… kiss it. My precious lady and Kotetsu… I love it when you two are pressed against one another. Yes… nn… both of you are beautiful. I love you.
K: *murmurs against your lips* Stay still just like that… it’ll be dangerous if you move.
K: I won’t injure your skin… it’s just that… Kotetsu also seems to want you. Let me cut that kimono at the least… *swings sword* Kotetsu is throbbing to be held by you. Please hold it. You understand, right?
K: *low whisper* Such skill, Miss… let me feel your heat as well. Just for tonight… I want to forget everything… and drown in you, Miss.
K: How naughty… doing this… *kisses* Hah, what a nice response… you’re so beautiful… I think I could have fallen in love with just this. *kisses* Feel this as much as you want. I will ravish you until you can’t even think.
K: *desperate kisses* Say it, please. Where do you want it? Nn… over here some more? *kisses* Miss, why are you so delicious… here and there and wherever… no matter how many times I taste you, it isn’t enough.
K: When I think about how every inch of you is mine… I get a terrible feeling of luxury. I want to kiss not just your lips…*kisses* but many other places;…*kisses* your cheeks… your forehead… your ear… your neck… Haha, shall I try kissing you everywhere until you go mad?
[06:06] *you nearly drop Kotetsu*
K: Oops… that’s right… let us have some discretion for tonight from this child. It’s a night for farewells. Even if I look only at you… it’ll surely forgive me. *sheathes sword* Turn around, Miss… let me hold you. Come into my arms…
K: *kisses* Your skin… is so hot it burns… *sucking* It looks like you’re melting… haha, are you feeling impatient? But… tonight I want to deliberately treat you carefully… I want to feel you… slowly… leisurely… *kisses*
K: What a cute reaction… *kisses* It looks like you’re gradually losing strength. *whispers* Are you okay? Tell me when it hurts. *passionate kisses*
K: I want to feel you, Miss, just like this… *panting and wet noises* Miss…! I love you… I adore you… I can’t get enough of you… no matter how much and how long.
K: Miss, to me you are someone who brings me rest. The thing that I absolutely need to protect… is always you first, Miss, more than anything else. That’s right… even Kotetsu loves you and it is, to me, the hope for slashing open the future.
K: You… and Kotetsu… are existences that define me. Both of you… are essential to my heart and self. If I were to lose either one… I would lose my self. Do you understand?
K: Haha… thank you… *kisses* Ravishing you like this is nice, but… it’s sad being unable to see your face. Turn around and face me slowly.
K: Yes, that’s right… nicely done. Good girl… *gentle kisses* Don’t let go of me and stay like this. Nn… haha… how proactive of you, Miss. *groaning*
K: I want to love you… deeper… Nn… Does it hurt? You look fine, heh… *kisses* I… can’t be without you any more. You… are really… amazing… I’m completely entranced… haha, you as well?
K: I’m happy but… that’s a little troubling… No, right now… saying those kinds of things… *breathless* is a bit uncouth. *groaning*
K: You don’t have to hold back… go ahead and feel it all. *heavy breathing* Even at a time like this, you don’t change at all, Miss. *whispers* You’re so lovely… I love you… *deep kiss*
K: Are you alright, Miss?… I overdid it a little, huh. *gentle kiss* Aa, the night hasn’t ended yet… I’ll still stay by your side, so don’t worry.
K: Aren’t you tired? You should rest… I’ll caress you gently until you fall asleep. *pets your hair* *rain falls*
K: Haha… I’m not that cruel of a man. I’ll wake you up properly before leaving… be at ease.
K: *softly* My dream of regaining peace with these hands is already broken but… even still I… have my way of the sword. I think about how there might be something in this world still for me to be able to do. For the sake of that dream, I will hide myself… leave you here… lie to my self… and choose the path of running away.
K: I’m enough of a terrible man, huh… to you that is… This hand, which grips Kotetsu for the sake of chasing after a dream, and this hand, which wishes to bring you happiness… both are mine. Choosing either one of them… would be, at most, having half my body. And it would be the same thing if I lost either one of them.
K: I don’t want to lose either of them… For the sake of protecting both… I am going to leave you now…
K: At the end of this road… it would be nice if the Shinsengumi could stand again… and then, once again, I would like to protect the weak people in this world. My precious men… and you… I want you all to live. *caresses your hair*
K: Haha, how embarrassing… it looks like you’re already asleep, Miss.
K: If I stay here any longer beside you… I will find my will to leave weakening. *whispers* I should go soon… Please forgive me somehow for lying to you about waking you up when I am to leave. I swear that this will not be our final farewell. Please be happy until the day we meet again. *kisses*
K: See you then… Miss… *opens sliding door* *rain grows louder*
*** TRACK 8 ***
*howling wind* *footsteps*
K: What a terrible snowstorm… footsteps will be left behind in this. I need to put in as much distance as possible. I’ll raise money as a wandering samurai at some rural village… my one advantage is endurance.
K: Hm?! *more footsteps* Am I being followed? It looks like it is once again a large amount of people. Heh, do they wish for my head that badly? However… *grips sword* This head won’t be given that easily. I’ll resist until the very end and… no… *releases sword and runs off*
K: My only thought was to live and survive and so I threw away my shame and turned on my heel. I turned my back to the enemy and ran from that place. If I fought that number of people… I would have lost my life without a doubt. At first I thought that was fine…
K: Fighting until the last breath… covered in blood with Kotetsu… struggling through the fatal blows delivered by countless people… and being cut down while standing my ground. I wanted to face that end with my way of the sword.. is what I thought.
K: But when I drew my katana… my eyes landed suddenly on a blooming flower on the road. Even though I was hesitating… that blue flower in the snow, as if it were glittering, opened up. It was a forget-me-not.
K: In that moment, I thought about you more strongly than ever before… that time our hands were laid on top of the other when we both went to pluck it… that time when we mutually confessed our feelings… that broad smile when we ate sweets and you found them to be delicious… that clinging voice when you begged me to bring you along… *voice lowers* those tears trickling down your cheeks…
K: I mustn’t die… is what I thought strongly. I won’t end here. I… mustn’t do anything but survive. Not just for you, but the people following me… the people who lost their lives for me… and the people who believed in me and stood by my side until the end.
K: I… wouldn’t be able to face any of them if I stayed here like this… When I think about them and the Miss… and the fact that I devoted my self to Kotetsu… I felt as if I was betraying it.
K: And so I… turned on my heel… and showed my back to those chasing me. Haha, but that didn’t work out so well.
K: I ran and ran from the large crowd… and continued running but… soon I was caught. Maybe because I didn’t draw my sword even though I was being chased… I wasn’t cut down on the spot and was taken away by them. Now… I am in jail.
K: Soon, without a doubt, I will be executed. I am sure that they won’t permit to commit suicide under the way of the sword. I will have to lower my head as if ashamed… displayed for public humiliation… I might even be laughed at.
K: But… *fiercely* I still have… my life right now. As much as possible, with this life, and until the very last moment… I will… not give up on living! And then finally… I will be able to face you all.
K: Everyone… thank you for everything up until now. One day… it would be nice if we could laugh without constraint… that is what I wish for… and Miss… that vow I made about it not being our last farewell… I’m saved by the fact that it never reached you…
K: If you had heard it… somehow… you would feel betrayed, huh. *shaky voice* I’m sorry… I didn’t even say goodbye… no matter how much I apologize to you, Miss… it won’t be enough, right? *brokenly* I’m sorry… there were a lot of things I didn’t say to you… apologize, thanks… goodbyes… that I loved you… always…
K: If I conveyed to you all of my feelings… I wonder how long that would take… Why did I not talk to you more often when I had met you?… after all, if it was going to end like this… it would have been better if I had been by your side more, right?
K: *teary laugh* It seems like… my fate is to be covered with regrets until the end like this. I’m such a hopeless man… At the least… at the very least… I want to say again… an “I love you”… even just that… Until the last moment, I will think of you… if I had said that… how cruel would it have been?
K: You know, Miss, in truth… I had asked myself countless of times… why I didn’t take you along and damned if you were dragged into this… If you were beside me I feel like I could endure any kind of misery.
K: If I said that… I wonder what kind of reaction you would have had? Would you have smiled? Would you have been troubled? Would you have been embarrassed? I want to meet you… Miss…
K: At the end… even a glimpse would be fine… *broken voice* I want to see you…
*** TRACK 9 ***
*footsteps* *birds chirping*
K: Hey, Miss… once again you became all the more beautiful in the time that we were apart, huh. *you leap at him* Woah, haha! How have you been? Oh? Holding you like this… I can feel that you’ve become slimmer. Haven’t you been eating properly? That’s no good, Miss. I prefer hugging you when you fit me.
*you hit him*
K: Haha! Before we continue these light talks, there is a mountain of things we need to talk about, huh. But… at any rate… I’ve returned. I’m home, Miss.
K: You heard that I had been captured? I see… I’m sure you cried a lot, right? I must have worried you. As you can see, I’ve become skinnier as well after being captured. I was also tortured so my looks have changed, you see. *wry amusement* I’m not really in the position to complain about you getting skinnier.
K: In truth… I was uneasy as to whether or not you would recognize me at a glance with how I currently look. Mm… I’m rather grateful actually. With this appearance then the new government won’t be able to recognize me immediately. It’ll be easier to live.
K: *laughs* I’m also wondering if this is a dream! The Shinsengumi have become scattered, right? But there are still many who live… and someone came to break into the jail and save me. If this is a dream… then I don’t want to wake.
K: You’re curious as to who came? Haha… that’s right… it’s not interesting if I tell it so simply. I’ll tell you the whole story later.
K: More importantly, Miss… I can no longer live as the commander of the Shinsengumi… right now the only person here is… a man with no responsibilities.
K: But there are still things I can do in this new age. I won’t give up on my reformation. I want to start again from the beginning… *low voice* Miss… will you… come with me?
K: Please don’t cry. There, there… I won’t leave you alone any more. I will swear here that I won’t die so that I can be together with you as much as possible. I promise. From here on, we will be together.
K: I’m glad, haha! I don’t know what I would do if you refused. Well then, let me help with the preparations for our journey. I want to change to a bigger house. We need to find a place for us to stay…
K: Ah, that’s right! Will you listen to one of my requests when things have calmed down? What, it’ll be simple.
K: That obi… you still have it at home, right? In that case, next time I would like to see you wearing that obi. And then I’ll… say that “As I thought, you’re lovely”… before making love to you. And then we can both go to a festival again; we’ll walk with our hands held underneath the lights of the lanterns.
K: And then I’ll give you a present again. That’s right… how about a comb? *chuckles* You’re crying again. With these tears, it makes me think that it isn’t so bad to make you cry. I’ll reconsider that. *you start hitting him*
K: Haha, I’m sorry! As an apology, I’ll listen to your wishes for our new home. First, would you prefer going to the north or the south? It wouldn’t be bad to travel around the country either as an intimate trip.
K: Don’t worry, we have a lot of time. You can think about it as carefully as you want. *kisses* Haha, before we prepare for our trip ravishing you with all my love comes first, huh. Now, come… today, for this entire day, let’s pass the time making love slowly.
*** AFTERTHOUGHTS ***
There are just so many points here that are awful when you realize what he is referring to in the history of the Shinsengumi. In Track 3, he talks about making a depressing decision… he was talking about assassinating one of the other commanders who betrayed them.
Also, here’s your first taste of hearing Kondou’s love for everything he believes in and how he can’t put anything over the others. I just… love men who are burdened by the weight of their aspirations and goals (also here’s another character that falls into theme of my biases being powerful people, oops).
TRACK 5. EVERYONE KNOWS WHAT HAPPENS TO SOUJI… so hearing this talk is just… gut wrenching. And just listening to how he picks himself back up because he’s responsible and mature, but it’s also heartbreaking because I DON’T NEED TO HAVE FUN I JUST WANT TO SUPPORT YOU.
Track 6. I am in love with this track as well because of how he acknowledges that his perspective is quite gray. He’s fighting for peace but whoever wins will end up bringing this country to peace, so his party isn’t exactly in the right and neither is the other.
Also, when I was talking about men who had dreams and goals apart from the heroine I was talking about Kondou’s wish for peace, and then Rejet has to stab me in the heart with their scenes. S C R E A MS and just… these types of stories where the protagonist becomes what they have been fighting against and the fact that Kondou is self-aware of that and leaves is just… heartbreaking.
TRACK 7. THAT DAMN OBI. HOLY HELL. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO ANGRY… the first time I listened to this I was on the bus and I nearly cursed out loud because I was furious. I wasn’t expecting Rejet to just rip out my heart and stomp on it like that and not even give him the satisfaction of seeing her in that obi.
It just piled so much bittersweetness onto that scene and especially when he says that line about him being unlucky… I… *cries uncontrollably* I CAN’T BELIEVE THEY DID THAT. WHY? WHAT THE HECK?! AND THEN THE END OF THE TRACK. FILTHY FILTHY LIAR HJSKHFKH *SCREECHES*.
Track 8. I just… kudos and many compliments to the writers at Rejet for STOMPING ON MY HEART. I… I like it when protagonists accept death and are prepared… but there’s also such joy in the agony of seeing men filled with regrets and KONDOU’S LAST MONOLOGUE HE JUST… HE WANTS TO SEE YOU SO BADLY. His speech about continuing to live but betraying his way of the sword too… this kind of conflict between two sides of him is glorious.
Honestly, I kind of wish his CD ended at track 8 after that heart shattering monologue… but then again it didn’t feel much like a resolution to the story and I am glad that he ended up being happy… it’s just that… Kondou actually does die at the execution so… UGH men who suddenly realize they can’t accept death though because they have so many regrets and precious things… I just love how realistic that is and sometimes it’s more devastating to see that than acceptance.
And… that’s it. That’s the end. Thank you to anyone who even bothered to read my ridiculously dumb TL;DRs on this guy… I’M SO LATE FOR VALENTINE’S IT’S NOT EVEN FUNNY. I’m not even in the right month ヾ(:3ﾉｼヾ)ﾉｼ but I think I’ll start to make it a ritual to do a post about one of my biases to share them. Once again, thank you all for your support of this blog!