Light Beyond 3 ~ Chapter One ~

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One person.

Only one person.

 

–You can choose.

 

The woman who called him Lord Asyut smiled.

 

No, no.

I can’t possibly choose.

This is madness. The smiling woman in front of me is insane.

 

–The one person you choose will be saved.

 

Please don’t say anything more, Asyut wished from the bottom of his heart.

He couldn’t understand. His mind was unmoving like it was paralyzed.

His feet, which should have been standing on a red carpet, started to tremble and gradually lost their sensation.

 

It felt like he would collapse there.

 

–You can’t choose?

 

His throat was dry and scratchy. He couldn’t get even a single word out.

The woman looked like she was amused and sad, like a goddess granting mercy– her expression constantly changed.

And still she continued to spin cruel words.

Each one of her words became a sharp blade which attacked and chipped Asyut’s soul.

 

Flickering lamp fire.

Damp air that clung to his skin wetly.

The sound of someone holding their breath.

Even though everything was right beside him, at the same time it felt extremely distant.

Asyut clenched his fists.

 

Ah, why did it come to this.

 

At the edge of his blurry vision, his precious sister was standing still, unable to move, and looking like she was hugging herself.

Her largely widened eyes shook without reliability.

 

It’d be fine, if he could just hug her.

If he could just take her out of here right away.

 

If he could just rewind time–!!

~~~

A light, dry sound leapt into his ears and Asyut returned to himself with a snap.

His pen, which fell out of his hand, rolled across the desk dirtying documents with ink right before it dropped to the floor.

He sighed deeply and bent to pick it up before standing up aimlessly from his seat. He went to the drawer alongside the wall and poured himself a cup of water from the jug there before draining it in one gulp. The lukewarm water left an unpleasant sensation in his throat. Asyut furrowed his brows faintly and then set the cup down without any strength.

There was no one other than him in his office. It seemed he spent quite some time sorting documents. By the time he realized it, it was already completely dark in the room, and the lamp placed on his desk swayed unreliably.

Asyut stood still and stared into the darkness.

It was that dream again.

He said that to himself in his mind.

A dream– no, that wasn’t a dream. From time to time he was called back to the “reality” of the past. A scene that had not faded at all since that time, and even now tormented Asyut terribly.

Asyut walked, as if dragging his body, to each lamp in the room and turned them on. When he lit the last lamp, he felt like he completed something unbelievably hard. Along with his sigh, he blew out the candle he used to light the lamps with a quick puff. The smell of the tiny smoke which spread stung his nose.

He knew it was already time to finish up his work and return to his personal room. Even he felt that lately he had been accumulating a lot of stress. All the more reason to return to his room quickly and get some rest, he told himself calmly.

But it was obvious that he wouldn’t fall asleep were he to return to his room and lay on his bed. Problems, which were unsettled, appeared in his mind one after another, and he couldn’t help but consider them. There was the anti-saint faction, the whereabouts of his sister, and– Celiastina. It would have been better if he were thinking about constructive things. However, what appeared and disappeared in his mind was always helpless complaints and pessimistic predictions.

That’s why it was easier to immerse himself in work like this for long periods of time instead.

Yes, that was what he thought but…

(…… In the end, no matter where I am or what I do, it’s the same thing.)

Asyut shook his head lightly.

At the very least he was going to finish sorting his documents to a point where he could leave them. Telling himself that, he faced his desk again, and when he sat in his chair, his body sunk like a stone into the cushion.

In that moment.

There was a restrained knock on the door of his office.

Asyut raised his gaze, which had dropped to the documents, and he looked at the door.

“Come in.”

He responded in an even voice – as much as possible – so that his exhaustion could not be seen. The person who entered was the servant who received visitors for him.

“Please excuse my intrusion at this time of the night.”

Saying that, he gave a respectful bow.

“What is the matter.”

“Yes, my lord. Sir Aeneas, the Lady Saint’s bodyguard, wishes for some of your time.”

Aeneas. The name made Asyut’s eyebrows dip.

“Is he outside the room currently?”

“Yes, my lord.”

The servant nodded while seeming to look somewhat bewildered. That would be the case, since it was rare for people who weren’t Asyut’s direct subordinates to visit him at his office. Furthermore, it was already an unreasonable time to approach him about work-related matters. Normally, the servant wouldn’t announce visitors to Asyut and would have sent Aeneas away but he was the saint’s bodyguard, therefore even the servant was unable to make a decision.

Asyut nodded lightly.

“I understand. Let him through.”

Most likely it wasn’t a matter about work. It was likely to be a personal matter, which is why Aeneas went out of his way to come at this time. In that case, all the more reason he couldn’t be sent away. –If it was a personal matter from Aeneas then Asyut could roughly guess the subject.

When the servant lowered his head once more, he quickly disappeared past the door.

“Excuse me.”

In exchange, the person who appeared was Aeneas, who entered the room directly with calm steps and a straight back. The air around him was somewhat different from other knights. He had an upright and virtuous atmosphere. He came from a distinguished family whose blood wasn’t second to Asyut’s and– his will, which had no doubts, could be seen in his appearance.

He was wearing a bodyguard’s uniform. It was probably impossible to visit Asyut’s office in civilian clothes but, above all, the job of being the saint’s bodyguard was unrelated to the morning or night. Presently, Aeneas was essentially the only bodyguard, and even now he might have chosen to come here during a break in his work.

Neisan, the other bodyguard, had been released from his duties some weeks ago.

When Asyut and Celiastina had visited the graveyard together, an attack had occurred from the anti-saint faction. There was no mistake that Neisan had been involved in that matter and, naturally, he was arrested in the royal palace and voices were raised about him being thoroughly investigated. However, that did not happen. Celiastina had opposed that intensely. Because she stubbornly insisted that Neisan had searched for the anti-saint faction on her decision, in the end he was discharged as a bodyguard and demoted, which was a relatively generous punishment, and the matter was settled.

However, whether Neisan truly sided with the anti-saint faction or the royal palace–. That still remained unclear.

“I apologize for intruding at this time.”

When Aeneas stood in front of the desk where Asyut was, he gave a perfect bow.

“I do not mind. How about a seat.”

“No, thank you, I will remain standing.”

“…… Well? What exactly is the matter.”

He didn’t feel like chatting with Aeneas, and so Asyut cut directly to the chase. It seemed that was Aeneas’ intention all along, since he nodded once and started speaking without hesitation.

“It is about Lady Celiastina. I have something I wish to say.”

When the name he expected leapt from Aeneas’ mouth, Asyut narrowed his eyes slightly.

“Do you have a report as her bodyguard?”

“No, I do not.”

“I thought so.”

Asyut sighed, a quick breath, and looked away from Aeneas. He lightly clenched his hands which were stretched out on his desk. Aeneas’ voice quickly chased Asyut.

“It’s a very personal matter, but I thought you would appreciate hearing it, Lord Asyut.”

“……”

Asyut slowly raised his head. Why was it that Aeneas could make sure of himself with such strong eyes. Though he didn’t want to think that he was envious.

“I dearly love Lady Celiastina.”

It was like there were no doubts; it was a voice that carried his core.

“I believe you are already aware of this, Lord Asyut. Of course, I remember the many times that I have been warned up to now. I, myself, understand that these feelings are indiscreet for someone of my standing.”

For the first time, Aeneas grimaced.

“And that these feelings cannot be granted.”

Asyut remained silent and looked up at Aeneas.

“I have also thought that it would be best to stay silent and withdraw. However, in the end, I cannot do that. I cannot give up at all without doing anything.”

“……”

“Next time, I intend to convey my feelings to Lady Celiastina.”

Aeneas ended his words there and stared down at Asyut, who did not move at all. It was like Aeneas was telling himself that he couldn’t avert his eyes here, and that he couldn’t show even the slightest doubt.

“And.”

Asyut opened his mouth again, but he was surprised when his voice was lower than he thought.

“What am I going to do?”

“I simply wanted to say this to you. Because I do not want to do something like sneak around.”

“I see.”

Asyut slowly stood up. The two, who were close in stature, faced each other again as an opponent to confront. Whether it was because it could not endure the heavy air drifting between the two, the flame in the lamp on the desk shook and swayed.

“I believe you do not expect encouraging words from me either but– to be honest, I want to shout at you to not screw around.”

“Even so, I will not withdraw.”

In this tasteless room, Aeneas’ eyes – as clear as a blue sky without any clouds – seized Asyut. Where did the color of hate towards Celiastina inside of Aeneas go, Asyut wondered absently as he was drawn into Aeneas’ blue eyes. Just like himself, it should surely be inside Aeneas too. The terrible hate for Celiastina, and feelings of scorn. Even now he couldn’t understand himself. These feelings of care for Celiastina… how pure were they?

 

–I’ll let you choose only one person.

That light voice echoed in his head once again.

Faces in every direction, without color, and everyone was standing still. His sister, frightened and in tears.

A threatening dark impulse of wanting to kill her filled him from the depths of his heart.

 

(Again.)

Asyut closed his eyes tightly, trying somehow to overcome this disturbance.

It wasn’t something to remember right now. He had decided not to connect those events with the current Celiastina. –Yes, he had decided and yet… In the first place, with how he was still bound by the past, he didn’t even have the qualifications to face Aeneas like this, right?

What exactly did he want to do.

Indifferent to Asyut’s conflict, Aeneas continued with more words.

“If Lady Celiastina were to choose me, and this may be nothing more than just a dream, even so, I am prepared to throw away everything. That is how much I treasure her.”

Aeneas’ words were absolutely steady.

On the other hand, what about him?

It was painful to face Aeneas. He didn’t want to take one step back, but even though he had no intentions to pull back, why wouldn’t his heart stop pounding.

“I……”

A hoarse voice escaped his throat.

“I have nothing to say. This talk is over now.”

“What do you mean by that. That you could not care less about Lady Celiastina?”

“That is not true.”

Asyut glared sharply at Aeneas.

“However, I do not wish to do something as stupid as brandishing my authority to seal your mouth. That is all.”

“……”

Aeneas pressed his lips together, looking displeased somewhere. But he lowered his head with a stiff movement and turned his back on Asyut without saying anything more. Asyut watched Aeneas’ back as Aeneas left before his brows drew together firmly.

Even when he sat down, he did not feel like picking up his pen again.

He leaned his back against the chairback and looked up at the ceiling. Only now did he notice that both his hands shook slightly.

As he thought, it didn’t seem like he would be sleeping tonight either.

(T/N: Reminder to purchase this series to support the author if you love her work! And you’ll get more gorgeous illustrations like the one above :’)! This is one of my favorite chapters btw because not only do we get a fun confrontation between these two but clues about Asyut’s past and !! I just love his subtle breakdowns as he gets closer and closer to Yuna.)

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21 thoughts on “Light Beyond 3 ~ Chapter One ~

    sangti said:
    July 19, 2017 at 09:24

    I had binge read the entire thing in 5 hours phew this new chapter (strokes my non existent beard).. I just don’t get Aeneas. How can he not despise a person who ruined his and His bff’s lives? His love is based on a vague feeling of attraction he felt for a few seconds, and yet it’s strong enough to override the past. How even? Anyway, I’m still firmly on Asyut’s ship only because I understand how he’s been pushed to hate Cella, it’s not his fault. It is a testament to his strength how he goes about his daily chores level headedly dealing with Cella. And I sympathise with Cella too because I identify with her. As a kid in kindergarten, a douchebag laid his hands on me and that’s a complete nightmare I wish I could forget. Secondly, in high school and college, I lost some close friends to suicide and accidents and irrationally felt like I was central to all of it and somehow it was my fault. Well enough rambling, I hope Cella finds peace in the end :)

      Ilinox responded:
      July 22, 2017 at 18:29

      LMAO the disparity between how long it took me to translate and how long it took you to read cracks me up, because looking at my first post I started this entire thing in November 2016? So it took me around 8 months to get to this point and it took you 5 hours to read the entire thing, haha. I’m never gonna get used to that |D but now I’m sorry you have to wait for the next updates now.

      Aeneas is… a bit puzzling for sure. I think it’s great that he’s able to move on and I guess the remorse he thinks Celiastina showed (though it’s truly Yuna) was enough to flip his thoughts around. To be honest, I think he doesn’t have as much baggage as Asyut and Neisan who personally went through torture while Aeneas just had his rank demoted, which he actually felt great about because it was so freeing LOL. And it’s harsh to say this but even though his BFF was getting tortured it’s something a bit removed from personally experiencing it so… hmmm.

      YES! *waves the Asyut flag* I love everyone in this series but Asyut’s quiet strength and how he manages to keep himself together and treat Celiastina civilly even after all that happened is truly amazing.

      Oh god, I’m so sorry you had to go through something like that as a child ;w;/ and through your school years. I hope this story manages to give you some sort of catharsis through Cella though, as long as you don’t start murdering people indiscriminately and build a jail to torture innocents then I think you’re leagues above handling the past compared to Cella– //bricked.

    dark lotus said:
    July 17, 2017 at 23:23

    I shhipped aeneas with celia, neisan with celia and even linus with celia.. but I dont ship celia with asyut!! Oh my

      Ilinox responded:
      July 20, 2017 at 19:39

      Oh no, haha, is the Asyut x Yuna ship too bittersweet and sad? I’m totally on board with those other ships too. Honestly, Yuna is just so pure and nice how can anyone NOT be in love with her T_T.

    Andi said:
    July 17, 2017 at 22:41

    Thank you so much for the chapter! So we will get to see the past that breaks even Asyut down. It said he was surrounded by faces that were pale.. I wonder if Celiastina gave him the chance to save one person from the first group rounded up for the holy jail, his sister included?
    Celia was hurt that she felt he suspected her of killing her friends.. so perhaps she tried to make him feel responsible for people she really did intentionally kill? Kinda like “You selfish person, you are no better than me! You saved the one person dear to you, and doomed the rest. We are equally guilty for each of them now.” That would certainly be bad enough to give someone PTSD over it.
    I also feel like this will be a good look at the beginning of her plunge into madness. (the first group of people she intentionally killed, I’m guessing, as it was mentioned before that what sparked this was her feeling blamed/suspected by Asyut in the suspicious “natural” deaths)

      Ilinox responded:
      July 22, 2017 at 18:24

      You’re welcome <3! Loving your comments as usual because you have really good theories about the story! Knowing what we do about Cella's past now it really does seem like she was majorly hurt by Asyut's doubt about her and lashed out… in the worst way possible. We're definitely going to rock bottom in this chapter if we're going to find out about the start of Cella's true madness and Asyut's PTSD origin.

    F_J said:
    July 17, 2017 at 22:37

    How could this ship sail when all the sails are broken and full of hole!?! Geez… i don’t wanna root for Aeneas cause he’s not going to…. but then he’s so straight forward and cute.. boooooo
    But what?!?! Where did my Neosan get demoted too? How could you do that! Bring him backkk. My happiness in this sea of feels, gone.

    Many thanks!

      Ilinox responded:
      July 20, 2017 at 19:38

      WE CAN FIX THIS! You just gotta believe in loveeee– //bricked. Aha, I feel the struggle with you because Aeneas is so adorable that I just keep thinking “in another life… if Asyut didn’t exist”.

      LOL I’m sure Neisan is still lurking around somewhere! They can’t get rid of him that easily!

    Night said:
    July 17, 2017 at 11:15

    Thanks for the update! We see a bit of celia’s madness firsthand. It must be very difficult for him to confront his feelings about the current Celia. I don’t think Yuna will accept anyone’s feelings now…considering she has few month.

      Ilinox responded:
      July 20, 2017 at 19:36

      <33 thank you for commenting! Asyut's conflict adds a heavy bittersweet dose to this story :') but you have a good point about Yuna. It's kind of funny how the two men are struggling over their feelings for her, meanwhile she's getting ready to just be like "BYE EVERYONE".

    iNapoleon said:
    July 17, 2017 at 09:37

    So, finally the reason why Asyut hated Celiastina will be explained in these story, huh?

      Ilinox responded:
      July 18, 2017 at 21:34

      Fingers crossed! It seems very likely though :D.

        iNapoleon said:
        July 21, 2017 at 20:02

        Will you give me recommendations with good words as good as this light novel?

        Ilinox responded:
        July 22, 2017 at 18:57

        I haven’t really had time to read any other light novels. Translating really puts a hamper on my extracurricular reading, haha.

        I’m enjoying “The Reincarnated Princess Strikes Down Flags Again Today” done by Kukkiriri, so it has amazing quality, but it’s not done yet. The heroine is pretty young too so if you don’t like that kind of thing, you might not want to read it.

        “The Leftover Princess and the Knights of the Round Table” is great with all the political and knightly stuff and IIRC Aquascans is translating the novel but there’s a manga for it too.

        There’s no translation but if you enjoy Light Beyond then the other novel by this author is good too. It’s called “The Struggle of Returning to A Parallel World” or “Isekai Demodori Funtouki”.

        Oh! I also really enjoyed “The Baron’s Daughter Wants to Walk a Rose-colored Life” or “Danshaku Reijo wa Barairo no Jinsei wo Ayumitai” but I don’t think there’s a translation out for this one either.

        That’s about all I can think about for recommendations of LNs that I’ve read. The rest are cnovels but if you don’t mind reading those then I do have more recommendations!

        I’ve probably experienced “Just One Smile is Very Alluring” like 7 times now in different versions LOL since it has a manga drama, movie, two translations, and an audiobook. It’s super cute and fluffy and there’s no conflict but it’s so lovely! Sometimes you just want a pure relationship with no troubles.

        “Really, Really Miss You” is my guilty pleasure and really introduced me to the world of ancient chinese music which is lovely. It’s also a story about voice lovers and if you know anything about me, I’m obsessed with voices LOL. This one is also super fluffy with no conflict.

        “One Life, One Incarnation – Beautiful Bones” is written by the same author as “Really, Really Miss You” but it has such a different feeling. This one is really interesting because it’s so scenic and once again the love is really mature. This one has a bit more conflict but the main couple is so good. It also has an interesting take on reincarnation.

        “To Be A Virtuous Wife” is a historical one though the heroine reincarnated from our world. This is a cute story with some conflict but our main couple is a power couple. I’m really picky with historical stories because they almost always tend to be so tragic I can’t stand them (Scarlet Heart was… a special one).

    Emilia said:
    July 17, 2017 at 01:36

    Thanks for the update!

    So… Asyut was asked to choose between his sister and ___? Wonder who the mystery person is. The speaker seems to be Celiastina?

      Ilinox responded:
      July 18, 2017 at 21:34

      Yep, the speaker is Celiastina and we’re being teased here with all these fragments of the past!! Hopefully we’ll be able to get the whole thing in this volume! Thanks for commenting <3.

    chamchaworld said:
    July 17, 2017 at 00:24

    Thanks for the chapter! This is so complicated for me, but I ship Aeneas more now. Because Asyut is so pitiful and well…I just have pity for him now. I really hope his sister is actually alive and she didn’t kill her.

      Ilinox responded:
      July 18, 2017 at 21:33

      LMAO I have to admit that this chapter was sending me into the Aeneas camp too. He’s just so sweet and honest and direct. I think that’s what makes it even worse for us because there’s nothing wrong with this sweet boy except that he’s not Celiastina’s fiancé… and Yuna is drawn towards Asyut. THIS CONFLICT IS HARD ON ME AND I LOVE THEM BOTH SOBS.

      Asyut’s sad past makes me want him to find love and peace even more :’)). And yes, we still have the mystery of his sister! Dun dun dun.

        chamchaworld said:
        July 18, 2017 at 21:47

        I think Yuna’s feeling toward Asyut is more like come from Celia’s influence with her.

    1_chan said:
    July 16, 2017 at 23:13

    Thanks for the chapter! No wonder he hated Celiastina so much before. It must be difficult wanting to hate someone, but coming to love them instead. Aiyah…Good luck to them both^^. Thanks for the chapter!

      Ilinox responded:
      July 18, 2017 at 21:29

      You’re welcome <33! And yes, we're getting more and more clues to Asyut's past :'D I love how well the author conveys Asyut's conflict with Celiastina. Ahh, growing to love the person you hate… Thank you for commenting!

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